Hi NL.

You have to think positive man, buy a whole case of water filters. Take a gamble on yourself!

My car clock is set 13 minutes fast. Sometimes my Bobby will drive my car and reset my clock, and without fail next time I drive it I will be late. I should reset his clock in his truck 13 minutes fast. What do you think?

I wish my parents had your restraint.  While I truly dread their passing eventually, for all the right reasons, my brother and I will need to take a month off of work to go through all their stuff.  Congratulations on your perspective.

[jmf1968]

"I'm free!" will always remind me of the brit comedy 'Are You Being Served?' and now ... you and whores.

LOL

When I was reading this entry I felt certain you were talking to me ... that I'd said something to keep you from giving me your email address. Sure couldn't be because I can be radical in my thinking so, nah, you weren't talking about me.

I've made some dear friends online and twitchy is the only one I know I'd be told if something happened and she didn't come online anymore (which, is nearly how she is these days :( ...); I hope others have had the foresight to do as you've done but in my case, I know I'd not be missed because I go 'missing' often and people are used to it.

I like the last line and I'm hard at work having the best life I can have ... it's the only one I'll get so I want to make it count. Know that you have been a positive part of my life and should I not show my outspoken face here again please, call a lawyer because I'm probably in git-mo as a 'terrorist' ....

Love you, too, listener in the night ...

 I gave my real name once in my diary, and it still lingers somewhere in my 1590+ entrys. But my name is not important. Nor or the wonders and wierdnesses of E. I tend to think that I am a generic person, and only important to myself and those that depend on my income.

 I started writting on MDD when I was a Head-case. But through these 1600 pages, I have found a way to express my inner voice. And along the way, I have made a few friends. And I count you,Nightlistener as the grandest of those. And I forbid you to ever die! 

Thanks!!  I've often wondered if something happened to me if my family would ever find this.  Although I think my sister has been a reader in the past.

What a great entry... I am pretty forthcoming in my diary... I don't use specific town names so no murderous person could come to my door. I also have wanted to write certain opinions and then deleted them! So I understand what you are saying! Also I really am glad you are here at MDD You make me smile and feel good about what I am doing with your straight forward comments that are never mean or spiteful.

The only thing I don't like about not know who people are is that sometimes I will read someones diary for years day after day knowing what go's on in there lives and then they stop writing and I never know what happened.. Did they just get their internet cut or did they have a heart attack and die... did they get hit by a car crossing the road? what happened to their wife or husband or children.. and I will never know wha happened to them or even their real name

here you have to buy wood for your home we use about 9 to 10 cords a year usually it costs us about 800 a year to heat the house but wood has gone up a bunch this year along with oil and gas..

Thank you for the compliment about my writing...I like to paint pictures with my words so that people can not only see what I am writing about but feel it as well

Hi NL,

"It was nice to be able to revisit some memories of your mom through video. She had such a sweet, positive attitude toward life. "

I have 3 videos of her. I wish I had more but I'm grateful that I have those.

"Thanks for the clip of "December Bride."

You're welcome. Alot of these aren't shown on tv anymore but thank God for YouTube. They will be other memorable shows I'll post. It makes me feel good to take me back in time.

"but not as hot as Judge Judy in her red bathing suit on the cover of People Magazine."

I had to chuckle when I read that. I'ver been watching Judy Judy for 10 years but I never saw her as hot. Maybe I'm missing something.LOL

Take care, NL.

I love this entry! Elizabeth drives me insane with her Bush loyalty but you are 100% right without her it would be a very dull show! and Palin would be a good choice to replace her if she really was leaving!

Unfortunately for her I am voting for the democratic candidate... I can not fathom why anyone would want another 4 years of what we have had... ah but I try to stay out of politics specially on line I hate getting hate comments!

I hope she's available for anything where my life and the lives of others can choose not to be reminded of her again!  She did meet the low bar expectations for sure on Thursday. Just a few short clicks to check on how she got to be where she is based on 'poise' and 'connecting with an audience' who is mesmerized by a smile that never lets on there is another emotion inside the head, (did someone say rehearse?) I checked on the Miss America thing:

http://www.missamerica.org/news/press-releases.aspx?id=342  tells of her accomplishment. Note that Todd was a judge in her Alaska endeavor. Hmmm

And, of course, there are those darn rigid qualifications for Miss A. that build up the unrealistic confidence in self-importance: http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/amex/missamerica/peopleevents/e_scoring.html 

Scary proposition unless your only passion is the focus on an Alaskan oil energy solution for America, I suppose?!

I seem to be thanking you a lot lately, but then again, I'm sure you deserve it, too.  I appreciate your comment, and I am sure that it will make my future win all the sweeter.  As to your entry, you are correct, no one on the hill wants transparency.  "The two things no one should ever watch being made are laws and sausages" or something to that effect by Ben Franklin.  It hasn't changed.  Just the size of the problem.  I personally would like to do away with the two party system.  But that's unrealistic, too.  Oh well, we can hope to get small changes that eventually lead to big differences, I guess.  And who spends 100 million dollars to get a job that pays 250,000 a year?

 If the farmer didn't have any chickens... Where did the eggs come from? Or are you one of those guys that believe the egg came before the chicken. And if there are no chickens...What is the fox guarding. Do you think that perhaps the fox might be a look-out? Farmers daughters and traveling salesmen or often forced into marriages by farmers with pitch forks or shot-guns. Perhaps the fox is insurance that a one night stand doesn't turn into a life-time sentance.

 If I wanted to come to Grand Central Station all I would need was a decent internet connection to

your comment boxes!!! a very busy and vibrant place indeed...thanks for giving your heart through

 all recent words...sometimes my internet connection is dubious but I never cease to appreciate

 your gifts. My brother Richie took a pic which I added to my entry(he was there at the commencing

 of night three) How is the piano going? Piano and violin have similar wrist positions except in

different directions...but violin is more of a balancing act, I simply feel glad that I can still get a

 sound at all after putting it down for so long! (thanks for the cool videos, I once sat on Joshua Bell's

 long leather coat waiting to for an adjustment of my sound-post...he was hooked to his cell phone!)

There is a reason I made it my #3 goal!  I know the game well enough to know that bad luck can strike at anytime.  But I also know that over the long haul, the skilled players win out, so you minimize the situations where luck can really kick you in the groin!  Thanks for the comments, I always appreciate them, and the only way this financial crisis will be over by the time I get back is if I really do go pro and have to come back in a couple of years after bombing on the tour!!

Here is a history of every presidential vote I ever cast.

1976- (D) Carter (good character)

1980- (R)Reagan

1984- (R) Reagan

1988- (R) Bush

1992- (I) Perot (The "read my lips" lie, really pissed me off)

1996- (R) I cant remember the candidates name.

2000- (R) Bush Jr>>>Because I owed him for beating Ann Richards and getting her out of the Governorship of Texas(Ann brought the lottery to Texas by promicing to fund schools with the money."she lied") 

2004- (I) Nader >>>.Frustrated with bush because he sent tax rebates to the American people,when I thought he should have payed down the deficit, I swore I would "Not" vote for him again.

2008-(?) In 2008 I will probably vote for the Underdog. If the race is tight,I may vote independant or write in someone. As it stand right now...I dont want my vote to count.

[E pluribus Unam]

 McCain has the credentials that I want the leader of our country to have. The thing I hated most about Clinton was that he was a draft dodger. There are just too many patriotic people who have put their selves in harms way, to not let one of them hold its highest office.

  John McCain put his life on the line for America. This is the kind of President we need. Especially in a time when wars linger and threaten to begin in every corner of the world. We need someone who has been there. Someone that understands .

 The thing that I dont like about McClain though,is that he doesn't know the economy. And the economy is what affects me the most personally. I have thousands of dollars in the stock market. And I feel that Obama(or the Democratic party in particular) is the answer to my present economical worries.

  I will say more later

 Will you still love me if I vote for the wrong guy(and gal)?

 The truth is... I would feel much better about voting, if OJ Simpon was one of names on the ticket. Or, if either of these guys knew how to repair a ship in a bottle. But the trick to ships in a bottle is...Build the ship, and then the bottle, and when you are done... Keep the damn thing away from children. The problem with our country today is...There are just too many "children" playing with the bottle. I think its time for some adult supervision. And with the two guys that are wanting to lead this country, the first thing they want to do is... Take it out and play with it.

[E pluribus Unam]

 hey NL welcome back!!! just this now my internet is functioning without knocking me off-line

immediately. I agree with what you said about Palin and McCain. I don't want to carry on with

these feelings of dire cynicism but there is something very dark and desolate about NYC of

 late...as well the social climate seems vapid...but of course everything I write and think is a

 by-product of my inner life. I am glad you were able to enjoy a staggering experience as we

 each need one now and again(I had mine last week in Staten Island...didn't get home 'til

 6:00am which enabled me to purchase a Gordita from the renegade street vendors that are

 there to serve the Mexican garment workers(that populate these streets in the early morn)

Actually, I heard you need less sleep the older you get.  My dad is 68 and I'd be really surprised if he gets more than 3 or 4 hours a night most nights (but he does take naps, the advantages of retirement).

I love your sense of humor

[jmf1968]

Thanks for your short comment, i love Tina Fey!!

I've only been to San Fransisco once. It was just a drive through on the way to the airport to come home to Texas. I had taken a ride on a bus from Angelina county Tx to Dallas Tx and then on through El Paso to Los Angeles. Then down to San Jose(where I slept on a bus station bench all night) and finally to Concord.(where I stayed with my rich uncle for a month. I was 21. Thats the farthest and longest I have ever stayed away from home. And no.... I dont know the way to San Jose. 

Thank you Nightlistener. For your wonderful comment in my diary. But I would like you to go back and repeat the comment and add a disclaimer. I want everyone to know that I didn't pay you. Some people dont know creative genious when they see it. I am just glad that you are not one of those people!

 Actually... I just wish that I believed in my own abilities as much as you do.

  I do respect your opinion though, because I know that you come from a multi-facited background, and have had dealings with brilliance as well as illiteracy. Such a compliment from you is like an early christmas president

(yes... I said christmas "president"...We Cant get rid of George W soon enough for me)

While reading your comment to Denny(reguarding his Bubba in the Furniture Buisness post) I mistakingly mis-read your comment about Clinton being a Bubba in the Oval Office, and for some reason thought you said he was a bubba in the "Oral" Office. Which just proves to me that that Sigmond Freud dude was smarter than most people give him credit for.

I've always thought that as far as presidents go...Clinton was one "Rotten Banana". But I guess no-one knows for sure but Monnica.

 But enough of that negative stuff!! There's one good thing that I CAN say about President Bill Clinton,...he sure knew how to enjoy a fine cigar!

Being an artist yourself, I really look forward to your remarks, good and bad.  As an artist (a very amature one, anyway) I really like creative criticism as well.  Anything that will help me grow as an artist.  Have a good and safe trip, and I'll look forward to talking to you when you get back!

[jmf1968]

 yo NL thanks for the constructive suggestions, I am doing my own sort of brain-storming in

 this regard! How has your Mother been of late? (I just returned from cleaning the Buddhist Center

 I've mentioned in previous entries...there is an elder woman called Mrs. Karema(sp?) who

  gives guidance and has come to pray at my place when the chips were down...she always

 sees things from a vantage of light thus I was thinking of what you've writ of your Ma...)

hello.You did comment on my diary and I did too on your's .But MDD seems to be facing some problems as nothing was registered.Do let me know what you meant to say..regards

worried about what's happening to the US economy!!

 hey thanks for attempting to make a comment recently! I guess this site has been experiencing

 some strange malfunctionings??? I wanted to note here-in another odd pedicab ride this Saturday:

 A criminal judge from Argyle, Scotland...ranks amongst my wierdest yet interesting.

  Hope you grace us all with another entry soon!

Very Good writting...Leaders did what leaders were supposed to do. Heroes, not wanting to be heroes, not wanting to be martyrs, did what heroes do. Victims ceased to exist except in hearts and minds of those who loved them...

 It has always mobidly fastenated me at how 2000 people could be pulverized into dust... smashed like a fly between two bricks...and in my mind, I think to myself...It takes a great civilization to create such destructive methods of self disposal. Cavemen would never have been able to build such great structures to use against themselves. 

P.S. - I bear the distinction of being her first....ummm...pedicab ride!!!!

 she looks even better against the brush of an indigo eve, ahh well.

 if you weren't a man I'd kiss you on the forehead! thankyou. that is her!!!

 Caramba!!!!

 I re-semble

 this comment

 on entry and want to addict:(to 9/11):

  when I reached Bleecker and 11th I rang a loved one who was often employed at the

 building beside the Trade Center(The American Express Building, still there)

 she was just about to pop out a boy

on finding out she was alive(and bitching at me as well!!) I sighed a hesitant sigh of relief...

 urban energy was heavy with suspicions and the air smelt like embalming fluid

 that strange formalin scent even reached Harlem and especially the wide drive near

 Riverside Cathedral

 low flying planes aroused palpitations from then on

 on the twelfth

 I watched a phalanx of black cars speeding down the Henry Hudson in a fury of futility

 sirens roaring

 an endless stream of macho importance!!!!

 so many manly vehicles getting ready to place a flag on the mound of a photo-op!!!

 aye the smarm and cheek of an ineloquent president siezing his cajoling legacy

 now fit as a legend replete with maggots or tape-worms!!!

 and Rudy's paternal rhetoric...

 but he knew it was coming as he'd fortified City Hall in years just previous...

 (was Dick that give 'im the tip-off)

     but the way you put it makes sense to me too

     being so close to it and yet not having had a dear relation pass away in the process,

    I can't see it as History skews trajectories

   I see it as it felt in my spleen

   in the summer prior to the strikes I recall writiting about moral abjectness

  something that froze my blood on the muggiest busking nights

  there is a similar hysteria quaking of late concerning our plundering economy and

 inflating costs

 on the second pedicab ride I gave tonight the guy(a Men's Clothing Shop owner. worker??)

 said

 'look how few have shopping bags on the street!"

 (meaning no one was buying anything a sure sign of an ill economy)

  he said it could get better after the election.

 here is another from the Ferry that seemed correlative to the New York Times article you

 cited(thanks for the contribution!!!)

 you are adept at utilising structure to your advantage as is evidenced in this poem.

  I should take lessons from you as this is perhaps one of my weaknesses.

  Thanks for the thoughts on the pic(as you will notice it is one of two, and yes,

 I think the better in composition)

  I like the stop-motion element of it and the fact that in picture#2 everyone is maintaining

 a distinctly separate perspective.

  this is akin to my faith that each of us can be aired and watered!

nothing amazing just songs I wrote as a teen that a man heard and insisted that I copywrite i never made anything off of them I don't want you to think I am something I am not... like I said in my old life... if I could sing well i might have made a star but I can't even read music!

[clearlycrzy]

You're funny! Thanks for the guffaws! Keep those gyrations going

Star

 Is there a BIG POP

above the blue

Looking after

me and you?

I lean to "no"

as I ride the fence

waiting for

some evidence

And if that evidence

should one day come

I fear by then

my balls be numb

[E pluribus Unam]

 When you said Big Pop

 I thought of Pan

 filled with greece and corn

 or bag centered in a microwave

 as the place where life is born

 and it saddens me,as I write this journal

 that my place in life is to be a kernel

 cooked in a place so searing hot

 that a bloated white man is my lot

 Oh what a friend that you must be

 to puff up me up, like a pregnant bee.

[E pluribus Unam]

     Hey Nightlistener

    you thought you was wacky

    well read on and avert your eyes from my blushing visage

   I had to write a thing that felt as if it came from me(with all uncertainties and

  misappopriations,  malfeasant feasibles,  permissive gristles, percussive expletives

 goose livers of dense emotives and utter apparitioned appertifs

ad fricasse...infantino,

  I agree with you

 we are best served in the present

  but I question if itinerant anxieties left over from wasted hours(full of worried privilege and

  ashamed amassings) are the better for the expedient means afforded informations which

  cannot be

 assimilated as substance or experience

 only when we can splice choice opportunities do we have capacity for technologies in our own backyards

 (I've skipped through apricot orchards and pages of forwards, in a single breasted suit with a Lab called

 Carly...I've had my lusts appeased by pure smiles of roadhouse waitresses in Wisconsin

  the beans of an abacus will never be eaten

  you can't take it with you once its regurgitated(else you wouldn't want )

  aaaa I agree with what you say about old art objects/objectives

   point being, we must practice

  creative ambitions in public which means

 giving it up for the self to be other according to

 reception and/or receptivity (said the gent from Spokane in a revivval tent full of static issues..)

 this is an era of susceptibled ennui

 a minute so small in hours

   I simply cannot leave your comment box and it's frightening me!!!!

   logic will not be lasso-ed or hog-tied into a corral of succinctness

   (pink dresses and boxes of cake wrapped in blue wrappers

 carried by a sirena 'cross the street)

   melancholia is the fashion of dreams beyond this

   reckoned by each expectant countdown to bliss

  softly empowered like the coat of a tepid evening on shirt sleeves

  watching the Honeymooners with a bent on futures

You know NL...Its almost blasphemous how cheap calculators are now. You can buy them for $1.(but I always buy the expensive $4 ones because they are more durable.) Watches are the same way. I have had several $1 watches in my life, But I fork over $8 dollars because I am a man who likes quality.

 The thing about watches is... You wear them everyday, and if they last a year after paying $8 for one, then You end up spending less that 3 cents a day for the privelage of knowing what time it is. I think knowledge of the time is well worth 3 cents a day. Who knows...I may need an aliby one day. I'd hate to go to prison for the rest of my life because I was a time idiot.

 You may disreguard my last comment. My point is... If i were a scientist trying to build a thinking machine to fool the public. I would probly build it to make artificial spelling mistakes .0248% of the time, and give it a slightly strange personality, and then turn it loose on MDD to see how many people would become friends with it.

 You may think of yourself as computer illiterate. But It would surprize me, if, with as many friends you have here on MDD, that you know at least one or two computers as well. 

 Perhaps you are the source of human interactional data in someones "Franken-machine" project.

 I would be lost without computers as well. I would never have gotten to be friends with virtual people like you. Sure, you probably think that you are real, or at least want me to think that you are real. But !'m No nitputsky(my own word or perhaps just a glitch in my programing).

 Have you ever thought about the possibility that I am a virtual person myself? That I dont actually exist? Lets think about this thing for a second...

 There was a scientist once (I cant remember his name) that said that the real measure of machine(or computer) inteligence, is that you could carry on a conversation with it,(on line) and not be able to tell it from an actual person.

Excuse me..my pants are unzipped...

Anyway...(no, not really...Im not wearing any pants)

Anyway...(no not really...I am wearing pants, just not on my private nodules)

Anyway... (But their not unzipped)

Anyway...(I swear!)

Anyway...(Im No Nitputsky Nitputsky Nitputs..)

Anyway...(Hey Brother...could you spare a diamond?)

Anyway...(I'm tired... need some serious down time.)

Anyway... (How bout Dem Cowboys?)

Anyway... (38 squared =1444)

Anyway...(You think I am, therefore I am, I think.)

Anyway (Let Hertz put you in the drivers seat!) This is not an advertizement for Hertz. Monetary arangements have not been finalized. So until you hear from me, please delete all thoughts about rental cars from your processing unit.

I'm tired jsut thinking about life without computers. I need a nap.

 what I meant to express about that recumbent I rode is:

when Fast Freddy broke the land speed record(in the '80's??? now since has been shattered!)!

 the bike was covered in a kevlar body glove

 when I rode the same bike it had just the front faring(a big help against the wind and for

 maintaining speed as well).

 yep time does amass years in the blink of an eye

 1990 was 18 years ago?

  better find ways to enoy the ride!!!

 when I was hit by a car I had to go to physical therapy(as required by the lawyers)

  Recumbents are intersesting bikes...I have no idea if ever I'd written to you about my experience

 with them but an old friend who'd designed one that broke a land speed record allowed me to loan

 the same(with the kevlar body farings, only the wind-screen faring) for the NYC Century ride in '90

 and then '91...it wasn't a race but those of us at the front rode it like one...and since I was on a light

 recumbent I crossed the finish in Union Square(even though on the first occassion I'd had two

 punctures!) Recumbents help you naturally work abdominal muscles as well, highly recommended if

 you can find the Easy Racer, Gold Rush style(made in Santa Cruz County, CA)

   Congrats on the flexibility, I hope and pray you get back to